Reflecting.....

So, the past couple of weeks have been nothing short of amazing-and we are loving life and RB more than we ever thought possible. So many times during the day I just stop and thank God for him. He's doing a lot of babbling and the expressions on his face are H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S! When Im holding him and he's supposed to be settling down for night night, I can't help but laugh when I think that he may be sleeping and I look down only to find his paci hangin out the side of his mouth with the biggest grin on his face and his eye brows raised to the sky!
But aside from all of this, there is a part of me that REAALLLLY misses Ethiopia and I think about his birth mom daily. I think about what she is missing and think about the loss she must be feeling, giving 3 children up to other families. That's pretty big of her. Pretty amazing. And now that we're home, even from complete strangers we get "does he know how lucky he is?" quite often-and I didnt really think that those comments would bother me, however the more I think about where we were and what we saw-he is lucky-but Ethiopia is such a different world, and them people there truley love their culture and it was so amazing-they are so proud of where they come from, that really he is missing it all at the same time. I totally know that he's in a "better" place, but we are going to make sure that we take nothing from him and where he came from. We are proud that we have a part of Ethiopia in us forever-I truely do miss that place. When we got off that plane, I dont think I was ever so excited to be in the states again, however now that we're home-I am bummed that I didnt let myself "go" more while there. As you all know and expected-I was a nervous nelly, and always thought the worse was going to happen to us while we were there, or something was going to happen to someone back here. I dont think i took in as much as i could have. It will be forever fresh in my mind....It's something so unexplainable-and I miss our friends that we made there everyday. When I get on their blogs and see the updates of their children I chuckle to myself because we too got to experience them first moments with their children, we get announcements in the mail and I even have a tear appear in my eye. When people say "You'll come back a changed person", they weren't kidding......