Not done yet.

What do you do when you feel like what you're doing is not "enough"?
This feeling weighs on my hear almost daily.  I miss Ethiopia every.minute.of.every.day.
I know with patience and prayer I will go back someday. Will it be next year? I sure hope it's in the cards for us, if not both of us, me.  I am not saying that because I am selfish.  I am saying that because my husband will be the first to tell you how passionate I am for the country and the people of Ethiopia.  And I am saying that because he would be the first one to pick me to go first if we can't both go.  After all, he went on one solo trip : ) ok, that's not the same thing but it was worth a shot.
If I cant get back to Ethiopia for a year, it is my goal to stay connected monthly via meetings, adoptive mama groups, conferences, etc until then!  People, I'm telling you: God put me where i am for a reason.  All of those nights sobbing after each loss of my babies he was telling me to just hang tight.  It's the craziest feeling n the world to now know WHAT the plan was, and I have to believe he's not done working in the area as far as our family in concerned.  I don't know if that means another adoption, another child, mission trips, etc I just know that I have a lot more work to do and many lives to be changed and touched.  My heart is full, and everyday I still pinch myself that this is the path he has chosen for us.  I just wish more people would jump on board and take the leap.....they have no idea what they're missing out on!